Life's Lessons to Live By

 “WHEN YOU LAUGH, THE WORLD LAUGHS WITH YOU

BUT WHEN YOU CRY, YOU CRY ALONE.”

When I was in college, every time I hear her name, people would say:

“Ah si Ma’am ba? Napaka-istrikto nun!”

“Napakababa niyang magbigay ng grade. Good luck!”

“Humanda ka ‘pag siya ang naging teacher mo! Wag kang magpapa-late”

“Kapag may assignment, ipasa mo agad!”

“Wag kang a-absent”

“Magda-drop na ako sa English 105. Natatakot ako kay Ma’am.”

“Napaka-istrikto niya. Parang hindi ako papasa”.

These remarks frightened me because she was my teacher in English 100 that time. She was strict, yes. She gave us difficult exams, yes. She was never late and expects us to do the same, yes. As a student, we must abide by the rules, yes. And we really have to study, unfortunately and fortunately, (beat the drum thrice) YES!

When I became an Eduk student (specializing in English), I met her again. My fears of having her as a teacher again grew more. This time, I cannot abide by her rules because I have other obligations other than studying. I was a newly elected as a president of a dying organization at that time. Although I was only more than two months member, I was elected right away to lead a handful of members. The organization was dying. It almost died actually. I am not a good leader but I have to try my best. As a new leader, I was expected to revive it, or so I think.

To revive the organization, we must solve the financial crisis and we must recruit new members. We did the latter. We succeeded, I guess. However, the former requires a lot of sacrifice and patience. And so, I signed (without thinking twice) a contract worth 1.9 million with the producer of Ang Guro Musical Play starring Ms. Marquez of GMA 7.

After signing the contract, the organization had to endorse the musical play to different educational institutions in Nueva Ecija. However, only few members of the organization were willing to help which forced me to sacrifice my classes. Even those members whose neighbor is a principal did not even try to endorse the play. Even those whose teacher is a teacher did not ask me how they can help. They were just texting me asking for updates of the program’s success. I was sad and angry which made me decide to do things on my own. That was the moment when I started facing problems in my classes. I even told myself that if I have to drop any of my subjects, I will drop it.

When I was at the verge of falling down, one of my seven (if I am not mistaken) teachers approached me. She called me outside then led me to a park at the back of the classrooms. She asked why I was absent for the pass few meetings. I was about to lie. I had no intention to tell her the truth. I was afraid. I don’t know what to say. She looked at me. She stared at me. I was sitting and she was standing. I was at the point of lying to her but her voice was so powerful. It was so strong, so motherly, so caring, so loving. When I looked at her, I started telling her the truth—everything. I don’t know but I felt I had to. I admitted it was my fault.

She was silent for a moment. Then she asked me if I had dreams. Yes, I replied. She reminded me about the dreams of my parents for me. I started crying. I told myself that I had big dreams. Silently, I reminded myself that I no longer want to suffer how unfair life is. I did not speak for a while. I was listening to her. My tears started falling down from my eyes again. Then (if I am not mistaken) I saw crystal balls falling down from her eyes too. I wanted to hug her as if she was my mother but I didn’t. When I was still sobbing, she said,

“Marvin, anak, when you laugh, the world laughs with you…

But when you cry, you cry alone.”

It echoed in my mind and I sobbed even more. She further explained that I had to prioritize my studies. I had to make sure that I will not break my parents’ heart. I had to secure my future first before trying to be a hero for others. I had to be good to myself first before being good to others who do not value my sacrifices in the end when I fail. Yes, it’s hard to pursue something big when you’ll sacrifice something bigger. And it’s even harder to give up something when you know it is the reason why you are in that place.

After that moment, I decided not to drop any of my subjects. Most of all, I resigned as a president of the organization. I got low grades that semester but I started once again. I did the biggest mistake in my life but I learned a lot from it. It happened for a greater good.

After that very significant encounter with my teacher, when I hear people talking about her firmness in the class, I just smile. I know that deep inside her strictness resides a caring and loving mother. She is ONE of the teachers who wishes to see the better things, if not the best, in her children—her students. The way I see her as a teacher totally changed. The way I perceived teaching changed. The way I see teachers WITHOUT an M.A. or M.S. degree changed. Importantly, the way I see myself in the future changed. And I will always remember the only teacher who talked to an ordinary student when he was about to lose everything he was dreaming for. I hope she will be my teacher once again and yours too. She is a living heroine—a modern one.

As Jeff Goins said, “Some heroes fly beneath the radar. They aren’t celebrities and you won’t see them on the conference main stage. But they give of themselves for the greater good. They act nobly. Their lives inspire.”

Oh, did I forget to tell her name?—I was talking about NANAY CAROL of CAS, CLSU.

April 24, 2013

1:09 a.m.-1:30 a.m.

Note: I forgot some part of the conversation I had with her but I tried to capture the most important things that happened.—MISinacay

To read in a pdf format, click the following link: http://www.slideshare.net/marvinsinacay/nanay-carol

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Thanks for reading.

Education in the Philippines: Looking Backwards and Looking Forward

source: http://joshweinstein.wordpress.com

While looking for a picture to inspire me from writing, I came across with this photo which I found at ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ Josh Weinstein’s blog. It reminds me of my elementary days when I was in a far-flung school in Carranglan, Nueva Ecija (Central Luzon, Philippines). Still, I can clearly remember those cold mornings and hot afternoons when I, together with my four younger siblings, have to walk more than five to 10 kilometers to and from our nipa hut to the school regardless of the weather. Whether it’s raining or not, we have to go to school; whether our slipper is torn or new, we have to go to school.

During those times, I didn’t blame anyone for what was happening to me. I thought it was just normal to walk such distance to reach the school panting just to catch up with the singing of the national anthem. During rainy days, the small bruises on our knees caused by sharp grasses will turn red. Eventually, it will swell then a thick yellowish-white fluid will come out of it. It was painful especially when blood will come out too when we stumble from running. I did not complain, never.

At school, I never thought that there was something wrong in the very hot and noisy classroom due to large number of students in each class. I never asked for a ball to play during break times. Back then, I never saw a swing where I and my friends could laugh out loud while alternately swinging each other. Running in all the four corners of the school, sometimes we even went out of the school fences, is enough for us to say we are playing.

Looking at our teachers, I never thought that their salary is not enough for teaching us while they cannot teach their own children. Seeing the torn chalkboard, I never thought that someone should buy and replace it. I never had an idea that whiteboard already exists during those times or that there is an LCD projector where the whole lesson could be flashed including pictures and videos.

When I was sent to Maejo University, Chiang Mai, Thailand for my student teaching apprenticeship (at my parents’ and relatives’ expense), my eagerness to teach grew even more. I would like to tell the young ones that everything is not normal. They have to realize that something is going wrong in our country.

I am not totally blaming the government for the quality of education that the young generation, including me, is receiving. Perhaps, I could blame our parents but I will not put all the blame on them. Perhaps, I could blame the previous and present leaders but I could not put the blame on them all. Maybe everyone should be blamed. We were all responsible for the sufferings which are happening and will happen in the years to come if we will not prevent it. However, what is the point of blaming each other? Of pointing who is wrong and who is right? Maybe to identify which was wrong and what is still wrong should be better. And to propose solutions could be the best. But to test the proposed solutions through implementation could be the BESTEST (please include in your dictionary).

Now, let us identify some ironies happening surrounding us. While many of us are taking online courses abroad, many classes in the public schools in the Philippines are taking place under trees or dilapidated school buildings. It should have been given attention many years back, not just now.

While many of us are using computers to make our tasks easier, still in most classrooms in the rural areas, we will see students and teachers alike are using chalkboards. Sometimes, even pea-sized chalks are collected to be used when the teacher runs out of chalk.

While many of our fellow teachers, lawyers, doctors, engineers and businessmen are pursuing higher education in prestigious universities abroad, some students did not and will not even taste how comfortable it is to learn in a very conducive classroom. While some children are going to work instead of studying in exchange of their daily foods, scholarships are being given to University professors to pursue their studies abroad.

While the government is giving laptop computers to selected students, whom they say deserve it, many students cannot even afford to buy notebooks, pencil and pen, and bags. Worst, some are wearing slippers, not shoes.